megan v soohoo 司徒詠梅

                                                                                                                                                                                              idea of being things you carry things you go through (installation - sculpture senior thesis) 2020 - 2021


idea of being things you carry things you go through is a body of work that focuses on the traumatic childhood experiences I faced, spanning over two decades. I weave together personal writings, my family’s archives, and photographs of landscapes, portraiture, and the domestic space; elements which examine a disquieted adolescence afflicted by mental, physical, and sexual abuse. Forced to return home due to the Pandemic, I found myself confronting the place where prior traumatic events occurred. After spending fifteen months there, and now continuing this project away from home, this distance has given me clarity to live with a past that will always be with me.
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artist statement 

My body of work is about the sense of disassociation and observation I feel towards my upbringing and culture. In taking control of my narrative, I give myself distance and allow this sense of perspective to inform each piece. There are spaces in my life I need to deal with and tackling them head on is what allows me to comprehend them. Once I’m able to reflect back to it and how I feel now, I gain a better appreciation of self and identity.

In using photographs and sculptures, I explore the dimensionality of mediums that can add to the concept of the work. In my senior thesis, idea of being things you carry things you go through, it explores similar topics to Teresa Eng’s Speaking of Scars. It requires confrontation and working through those moments where you weren’t able to better situate yourself. In creating this project, I reflect on moments that weren’t fully articulated at the time, as I was being physically silenced to not talk about them any further. The act of negligence of one's actions and overlooking its impact made it impossible for me to find the best way to express those concerns at the time. Using photographs to create visible flashes of time, and sculptures to accentuate its complexity, allows me to access and understand those experiences. Being allowed to explore aspects of myself in a healthy and vital way has made it easier to understand more in the ways that I was raised and how it contributed to how I identify now. To move forward in life, you have to touch base with those experiences that have affected your present or it will linger into the spaces of your future.






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megan v soohoo 司徒詠梅


idea of being things you carry things you go through (photobook - photography senior thesis) 2020 - 2021


idea of being things you carry things you go through is a body of work that focuses on the traumatic childhood experiences I faced, spanning over two decades. This is the first attempt I have undergone to explore the trauma in a physical form, through the use of family archives and my own photographs. In this series, I examine childhood trauma with the help of landscapes, portraiture, and the domestic space. In the process of undergoing countless personal writings to truly understand the extremities of the mental, physical, and sexual abuse I faced. I was able to gain a better understanding of how to cope with what happened to me and really try to flesh out all the things I’ve been unknowingly holding in. Being forced to return home due to the Pandemic, I found myself confronting the place where all the traumatic events occurred and realized that for me to move forward I need to let the past stay the past.

By creating this work, I’ve realized there is a much bigger issue at play. The fact is that within our culture and society, we are taught to leave things behind closed doors, in the past or as forgotten, especially within Chinese/Asian culture. The fact is in doing so, it creates an unhealthy way of how we go about life. This further develops negative health problems that could result in diseases and mental health issues. The photographic process has allowed me to juxtapose a narrative to speak to the experience as an adolescent, how it has shaped me, and how I currently express those circumstances now. Ignoring these life-altering events have caused more visceral repercussions than I’d like to admit. But ultimately, I feel the need to speak my truth, acknowledge the ignorance and neglect that occurred, and take ownership of what I went through.






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take me as i am 2021



take me as i am is a poetry book that navigates the said reality that we have been facing this past year and currently are still processing. I also speak to the notions of what it specifically means to be an American and how we as Asian Americans (generalized umbrella term that describes so many vast unique cultures) are viewed in public and behind closed doors. The book contains three parts that delve into the beginning stages of shock, formulating thought, and what becomes of acknowledging your own reality as yours to claim. Throughout this book, there are topics of identity, immigration, and self identity through the backdrop of growing up or living in the U.S. and how that entails our own personal experiences as a whole.





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reclaiming my name (casted bronze)
ancestral lens (glass lens)
poetic flower (brown framed bullseye glass panel) - work in progress
blend of two cultures(black framed glass panel)


2019 became the beginning of my journey to understand where I belong, relating to how I identified my cultural identity. I allowed myself to grasp what I was investigating through the use of my hands and the mediums I chose.





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megan v soohoo 司徒詠梅

physicality of the intangible 2019 - 2020


physicality of the intangible discusses the disconnect I have within my Chinese culture and how that has affected me to this day. This body of work explores memories and timelines through the use of language and identity. From the very beginning to the end, the shifts in imagery and text brings you back from the 1900s to present day. Using the human construct of language, the work delves into how differing cultures are visualized and how they can be blurred once together and once apart; the outcome never truly reaches a resolution to this particular issue. Nonetheless, physicality of the intangible can be the starter point to recognizing the disassociation to accepting what simply just ‘is.’





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